E–pub READ [God's Callgirl] Author Carla van Raay
Must not have been paradise But she did not get beaten did not get abused She was left out mainly because she choose to be She went left when everybody went right She said it was A when everybody said B I indeed think that convent wasn t the place to be for herAfter the convent she became a call girl as she explains because she had a godly vision about being a bringer of light to the people Who are ou kidding woman You are a hooker as simply as that And let me state that there is nothing wrong with being woman You are a hooker as simply as that And let me state that there is nothing wrong with being prostitute but just lets be fair and open about it Not the this is my divine way of giving joy to the people You fuck for money it s a job as old as humanity but that s it Nothing divine about itBy the end of the book she gets involved with all kinds of shamans spiritual leaders and I just couldn t be bother any I finished the book The Chickens are Restless yes because I was so close to the end But what a dreadful story it wasWe honestly think that the only thing that could actually have helped Carla was a good shrink According to everything I have read she is a extreme borderline patient This would have to be the worst memoir I have ever read and poorly written In the beginning I sympathised with Carla To be the victim of sexual abuse by the hands of a family member is appalling and can leave mental scaring But I could not come to terms with her actions later in life as a prostitute To set up a parlour in the same houseour daughters are living in I think is disgusting She became self obsessed towards the end and I don t think highly of her as a parentSo noI would not recommend this to anyone I brought this book last Gertrude Abercrombie year as one of my holiday reads Usually I get through a good book in 5 10 days but I have only just finished this one Let me explain briefly why The book starts off okay in fact the first third of the book was uite good detailing Carla van Raay s childhood and her reasons for entering the convent nothing out of this world though hardly page turning The second third of the book dragged terribly I expected it to be eye opening as far as revealing the in s and out s of convent life and describing some juicy what goes on behind closed doors facts Not so it was painfully dull This was when I gave up on it for aear but an unfinished book bugs me so I picked it up again this ear to read the final third Carla s demise into prostitution Well the only way I can A friend told me about this book and at first description I was keen to read it it sounded like a really interesting story right up my alley a woman s disillusionment and rejection of faith and Christian morals However a short while in and I was already disappointed Carla Van Raay s book seems determined to cash in on the virgin turned whore attraction Despite a significant portion of the book discussing the oppressive institution of the Catholic church and the cruel inner working s of the convent the book failed to enlighten me as to any rational thought regarding why the author gave up her faith There is little exploration of Catholicism itself the biography becomes a surface story about a woman abused by the system who thus chooses to take matters into her own hands and abuse herself God or any discussion of God is almost non existent and apparently irrelevant to Carla Van Raay s journey Although I support the idea of claiming freedom from sexual oppression it seems God s Callgirl goes to the
"Other Extreme Claiming That The "extreme claiming that the sexual desire s creates nymphomaniacs As autobiography the book poses a rather thrilling and extreme story but it reminded me of an expanded article from the Real Life section of a Woman s Day magazine with the headline Sworn virgin becomes a hooker how I went from nun to sex worker which is all it basically is. Another ageâ old profession â prostitution She worked as an escort to learn the ropes then struck out on her own setting up a massage service God's Callgirl was born When eventually the seamier side of the business began to assert itself Carla embarked on a journey to uncover the dark secret of her past A true story of religion abuse prostitution recovery. .
This book was at times tedious and hard to get through though I m glad I read it It was an in depth look at a very unusual life I have to confess that I often didn t like Carla very much I did sympathize with her troubles in the convent and it was interesting to read about how "she internalized the abuse she received at the hands of her father I liked the insight into being a "internalized the abuse she received at the hands of her father I liked the insight into being a in the 1950sBut the book got off track when she became a prostitute I felt she engaged in a lot of self deception and I felt she played the victim to the hilt that she tried to read deeper meaning into the fact that she had sex for money trying to set herself up as a kind of sexual healer bringing joy to her clients She never acknowledge the many marriages she destroyed not seducing the husbands of women who trusted her and were her friends She never confesses to horribly mistreating her husband and being a bad mother to her children glossing over these things And in the end with her constant search for healing she just seemed immensely selfish and self centered playing the victim when it seemed the vast majority of her problems were of her own making She lets herself off the hook by telling herself she is a good person and that she did her best I m all for self acceptance but she never acknowledges the bad things she did the lives she ruined Carla Van Raay is an interesting woman who led a perfectly imperfect life The book serves as a memoir that chronicles her life from childhood and the sexual abuse she experienced to her time in a convent and onwards to her life as a prostitute and later finding self acceptanceShe makes some profound statements and whilst her story is so different from my short life so far I felt that our emotional journeys have in some way shared similarities This book made me face some of my own internal voices and stories A lot of the reviews on this book claim she never acknowledges the bad she does and that she plays the victim throughout but that is a part of her story and her struggle with life By the end she is able to cast of her self imposed story of victim and whilst she never says i did this wrong and that wrong etcetc she does acknowledge that she did what she felt was right at the time of her actions the same as we all do She acknowledges her emotional immaturity I feel like going over all our wrongdoings in life is not exactly productiveSo no maybe Carla isn t likeable necessarily but she is human and she shared that humanity with us the reader Despite my sympathies for what she endured as a child I can t help but find the author an awful woman I struggled to comprehend the wrong doing of any nuns or convents She speaks about her children as though they are just objects Honestly I get excited talking about crochet than she does about her children And to top it off she is genuinely baffled that people are upset with her for sleeping with their husbands Being in need of some serious help does not excuse such appalling behaviour to friends and family Thanking my stars I don t have a toxic person like her in my life I ve had a fascination with nuns ever since I was oung when my Barbie dolls would regularly make vows to God and then break them in favour of a white lace wedding to Ken The Nun s Story still makes me cry and I can t decide whether I prefer the book to the movie they re both compelling in their own ways I even wrote two book to the movie they re both compelling in their own ways I even wrote two of a novel about a twentysomething nun who leaves her order under mysterious circumstances When I went to college an all female Catholic twentysomething nun who leaves her order under mysterious circumstances When I went to college an all female Catholic run by nuns I observed up close and personal the tremendous sacrifice and strength of will exhibited by these amazing women And as an impressionable 20 ear old I had a passing acuaintance with a wo. At the age of 18 Carla van Raay entered a convent to devote her life to God By 35 she was earning her living as a prostitute As a child Carla van Raay experienced a trauma that changed her forever Burdened by the weight of this terrible secret all she wanted to do was survive Life as a nun promised refuge from the outside world Carla hoped to find love and. ,
Man who entered the convent when she was 22 fre GOD S CALLGIRL by Carla Van Raay non fictionDuring World War 2 Carla s early childhood experiences in a small town in Holland revolved around her family struggles and Catholic upbringing that framed how one very oung girl would perceive her place in the world controlled by adults and the ChurchA terrible secret a busy and seemingly unsympathetic mother and a child s inner conflicts about how she viewed the contradictions of her understanding of Church and God moulded Carla as she grew into adulthood I was uite absorbed by her story in Holland and her life in Australia within absorbed by her story in Holland and her life in Australia within convent but became uite frustrated that at no time did she ever seek another opinion from the one inside her own head After her marriage and the birth of her child Carla seems to be never satisfied and has a need to explore something she felt missing from her early life Entering into a life of prostitution was I felt initially only a short term solution but further reading gave insight into Carla s turmoil and eventual addiction I became very impatient to finish this book uite frustrated and annoyed by a total self absorption and indulgence of the author however those who grew up in Catholic convent education may appreciate this book far than I I really loathed this book and rushed to finish and be done with it The author is filled with self pity and looking to blame others for her own self designed predicament While one feels great horror for the child who suffered at the betrayal and abuse from her father I felt that there was something deliberatley omitted from the story This child was presented with a few potential confidantes that she chose to ignore and I did wonder whyThe remainder of the story continued in the same vein with the author at one moment intrigued by the seclusion of the convent et at the same time unable to make the most of her situation Yes we understand that conditions were harsh in some circumstances and that indeed much harm was done in such secretive cloistered living but the author continued to place herself in situations seemingly deliberately in order to suffer I guess some psychologists would blame her past of victimisation by her father but once again she had an opportunity NOT to be where she put herselfThe path that lead to her work as a prostitute is once again laid at the feet of her past but I see a
person who clearly made the decision and perhaps if she had not been so unwilling to state and accept herwho clearly made the decision and perhaps if she had not been so unwilling to state and accept her part in her life maybe I could have empathised with her story jeepers what a life from abused to a nun and then a married woman to a prostitute I m glad she managed to heal as well as she did however I did cringe through some of her retelling as I wondered how she managed to skip over her husband s feelings around her choices I am not uite sure how to rate this bookHow can I say that I found it a dreadful story when it is actually someone s real lifelet s start by saying that I found it really hard to believe that the author could recall memories from when she was only 2 or 3 Yokohama Chinatown Fantasy Vol. 8 years old Very detailed memories indeed Then I am not talking about the abuse of her father But about what her mother said when she was two and what visitors came and what they wore etcDuring the whole book there was not one moment I could relate or feel sorry for her because through it all I just felt she called it all down to herself She likes being the victim and the ow poor me storyline becomes to get boring after a short while She starts her book with pointing out the horror of the convent But throughout the book there was not one moment that I thought Indeed this is horror Let s be completely honest shall we She is a non in a convent in de 50 s it. Understanding within the convent walls Instead she became enmeshed in a complex system of regulations that drove her to the brink of madness Finally released from her vows she escaped back into the 'real' world A hasty marriage and separation left Carla with a daughter to support With few professional skills to rely on from herears as a nun she turned to.